• Mike Douglas

Reaching for the pen


When you find yourself somewhere between having an episode and wanting one to take over your body.

I just can't deal with this I am unable to process these feelings, these emotions.

I welcome the moments when it takes over my body. I welcome the loss of control. This is the only feeling I can accept.

My mind is somewhere between racing and being absent.

I want to let people know Im ok, but I can't bring myself to lie, heck I cant even pick up the phone. My ability to communicate has gone.

I am grateful I have reached for a pen, its stopped me clenching my fist and punching myself.

I am still twitching but much less now.

Im not sure if it will come back, but I can at least move now.

- These were my thoughts during a episode -

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